I'm sorry blogger. I might not be here as often (like i already i am xD) cause I found tumblr. Kthxbai.
No, this will still be updated if i have time out of the free time i have. But till then, bye. (:
Xinyi(:
Xinyi
8:00 AM
It's amazing how i can wake up today like right the min my alarm rang.
I sleep slightly earlier on school days and find it hard to wake up the next day.
But apparently, I slept later than usual, and still woke up for Sports Day.
Bleh, idk.
Aigoo, I WANNA BUY SHINee OFFICIAL ALBUM SOON.
Like any of them, but I want the Julliette one, or maybe the Replay one, or maybe the RDD one.
Aish, JUST MAYBE ANY I CAN AFFORD. ):
Hoping to order online, but dk any trustworthy sites yet. /:
I was reading my older posts,
and btw I realised I started on May 2008, (apparently it was the month of SHINee debut, but I dk them yet, how much I've lagged. T-T)
And it was really interesting to see how my style of writing blogs change in each month, in each year.
I wonder how I'd feel next year as I look back my this year's entries. More SHINee, or will I lose interest in them alr?
But till now, I know I still love them loads.
Maybe a little over.
BUT STILL WITHIN ACCEPTABLE RANGE.
oh btw.
Sports day was pretty awesome.
No extremely strong sunlight.
Amazing races Scorpions put up.
Yeah, the comm trying to make us cheer is so hard.
Srsly, we're not that cooperative, i should say.
No i'm not proud of that, though i did try my best to shout.
But obviously it's not gonna make huge difference.
Is that what Singaporeans may be lacking?
Civilised enthusiasm at the right time?
Gosh, this reminds of SG fans injuring idols.
Yesh, please leave if you don't wanna read my rants.
I've warned you, it might not be super serious or long rant but anw.
I'm feel quite sad to say that SG fans, not all but still (perhaps other countries as well, but I'M NOT SURE), can't really control that fangirl in themselves.
Yes, that may include me, but I had never experienced it before, which don't give me much authority to judge them.
But that's my feelings, at least at the very first moment I realised it.
SG fans shouldn't spoil their own image at the very least.
Show them we love them in a better way than pushing them about when we try to get near them or anything that injure them.
I mean, Is that how we love them.
We show our love but injure them and then feel sad that they are injured.
Come on.
Are we that selfish?
Yes, all of us want to see our idols like by ourselves.
But apparently, that's a dream that will never become reality.
All of us know that.
Ofc, unless you have special relationships or permissions or anything.
But it is NOT possible for them to meet us one by one and expect them to remember all of us.
Maybe in the future it might be possible. But I know very well it won't happen NOW or the near future.
Srsly, have we shown them our togetherness spirit in supporting them?
That's a qn i have, and idk the answer.
I srsly do not know, cause i'm a new fangirl, and i know very well that my thoughts may be very superficial and not have depth.
Please correct me if I've said anything wrongly.
I mean, look at perhaps Taiwan, they organise themselves. Like grouping tgt before a show and decide a chant that they will do to show the idols they love them, and perhaps tell each other not to injure them as much as possible because we all love them.
Idk if the above is true, it's based on my inference.
So yeah, should we not make them afraid to come to Singapore.
Fandom and extreme fandom is diff.
Fandom is enough.
I hope i can do it too.
Xinyi
2:03 AM
Hey baby oneuleun baby
Hey baby eoddeolkka baby. <3
Heya people. (:
I'm addicted to the little phrase of up and down there.
Jiahui would be glad to know (yes, it's key's part)
But anyway, that's not the main point of this post.
Watched yesterday's last episode of the channel 8 drama, just the last 10 mins of it actually.
That was the only part i happened to watch for the entire series, but it kinda made me think.
What's your definition of happiness?
I'm still think about it, so i guess you people out there can think about it too?
I think it's a pretty good question to ask yourself.
Other than that, dance intensives started today. (:
My back is hurting but i'll hang on there.
Oops another spazz here, SHINee motivates me.
Okie, I must learn from them and work hard. (:
At the same time, keeping positive about it.
Oh, we tried on our costumes too ^^
GAH I need to do my hw soon. ): Procrastinating again you know. ):
Xinyi
2:09 AM
So, today is saturday and next week's no school. (:
*applause*
That's why i've finally got time to be on blogger again. :D
This holiday aren't gonna be that relaxed though it's still a good break and i do cherish it.
I hope i won't lax myself too much cause I really do need to buck up on my subjects in order to pull up the result.
I need to feel motivated, i don't want to spazz too much on SHINee in blogger cause i do that too much on FB, but SHINee kind of motivates me to be better. Even though they do distract me from school work.
How? i wonder why too. It must be cause whenever i see footages of them, behind the scenes whatever, they work really hard. So i think of that and ask myself if i'm working as hard as them. If i'm not, i've no right to complain that i'm not producing results and should work even harder.
I dk if that helps but it's still considered motivation.
So chinese oral's next monday, i have to prepare for it but i'm still not preparing! Digressing is a huge problem here. I'm trying my best to live the short one week meaningfully. but apparentl, digressing is making it difficult for me to do so.
And intensives from tues to fri. HWAITING DANCERS. GWH, WE CAN DO IT!
Honestly, sec3 marks many new starts for me. From starting Amaths, to having intensives fro SYF, they are all first times. And I can see myself start to sleep beyond 12 for the first time for revision for test. There's still many other firsts ahead, like O level oral, papers. It's not gonna be easy at all, but i'll be hanging there i hope. I mustn't let myself crumble.
If people can survive and remain hyper with 2 hours of sleep, i must try to believe that we can all do nearly impossible things. But then again, it's so easy to say. sigh.
Another thing is that i'm starting to love 逗号. yes i do. :D It's helpful ofc, to building up my knowledge, though not much gets in, it can be used as a good reference. But also they've got interesting stuff, yes, k-pop and idols. And so there's this article on fangirling (according to how xinyi translated it). I saw a meaningful title 爱而不疯. It kind of made me reflect if i've been too obsessed with SHINee. I wasn't really, i'm serious. Yes, i do get high at the mention of SHINee or hear their voice or hear their songs or anything that involves them. But that's all. Yes i am comtemplating whether or not to but their albums, though i already bought one (but not directly produced by SM, but some place in taiwan or smth) But that's really all. My definition of obsessed is when people really do go crazy over their idols. And according to that article, people killed themselves over the idols, or even collects their used socks. I mean, not that these are entirely bad, but it kind of restricts them and invades their privacy. Okay before i bore anyone, i should like stop here soon.
Please bless those who suffered in Japan due to the earthquake and tsunami. Hope that Yuka and her family is safe!
Xinyi
Xinyi
8:10 AM
AND SO! Hi people.
I haven't been updating, Wenfeng. And you should know why.
Haha, all the talk about changing blogskin and it still remains unchanged.
All because of SHINee. They're my current addiction, and still living.
Anyone noticed my serious twi obsession became serious SHINee obsession?
DUBUONEWLEADERONEWONEWSANGTAE. I just hearts Onew.
Yah, my dad says it's a bad thing to idolise. But that's like the only thing that occupies me during my free time.
Seriously, though super weird, they kinda motivate me. FIGHTING. :D
Brand new year. 2011. Feels the sameto me though.
305 isn't that bad, but I still miss 201.
The enthusiasm just isn't there yet.
BUT I'm broke mans.Paying so much and it's only the start of school?!?
I can feel the stress le. Class chairman's too big an advance for me.
I mean, it's like secretary, I still can handle, with some small problems.
Straight away chairman? Thanks for all who think that highly of me but I'm just not there yet.
I might just screw up the class. I'm afraid.
but anyways, I I mean, Evon, helped me tell my FT. and probably something will be done about it?
So... what else can I update? Uhmms, dance was pretty good.
Trying my best to improve but doesn't seem to see any.
But still FIGHTING! yeah, SHINee's highness coming back in.
That's why I love them. They make me high and forget unhappy things. :D
YEPP that's all. Not that long to cover the dead-ness but still something. :D
ANNYEONG! :D
Xinyi
5:43 AM
ohno.
intensives starting so soon? :O
haha but i like.
Been bored at home, but eveytime someone asks me out, i'd have something on. wth. ._.
iwanttowatchtangled.iwanttowatchtangled.iwanttowatchtangled.Somebody watch with me? :D
Haha.
Why does time pass so fast.
Is it like december now?
Gosh. Less than a month, a whole new beginning.
Would i be able to cope with it?
Hope so.
JIAYOU (:
Xinyi
12:26 AM
Perhaps I over reacted. (:
I hope I won't think too much agaain.
Xinyi
4:43 AM
Wth is wrong here.
I don't understand.
At all.
Am I not part of this.
Am I supposed to be left out.
Idk what i did.
but it's driving me insane.
Iis there a misunderstanding.
I really have no idea.
Why am i getting pessimistic.
I don't know what had gone wrong.
What happened to my world of happiness.
Xinyi
5:06 AM
It's sucky.
Not able to find yourself.
Not able to define youself.
Not able to have a character of your own.
Being cast aside.
Not having a life for yourself.
Not being appreciated.
It just suck.
So this is what i get for being easy going.
How awesome.
idk.
It had became a part of me.
It's unchangeable.
And I'm tired.
Really tired.
Of not feeling a sense of belonging to anywhere,
I still can't get over the hot and cold attitudes.
I still can't get over the loneliness.
Crap. ):
Xinyi
1:07 AM
Last day of school
it's ironic.
/sigh/
I'm surprised I'm neutral.
Perhaps it's just sec 2?
yes, i'll probably miss 201.
but in the same school?
I know it's just different.
Positions were disappointing.
though I improved from SA1 to SA2
I guess the people chiong-ed too much
Might as well,
I'll know where I stand.
Xinyi
3:23 AM
